The Cave

It’s empty in the valley of your heart
The sun, it rises slowly as you walk
Away from all the fears
And all the faults you’ve left behind

The harvest left no food for you to eat
You cannibal, you meat-eater, you see
But I have seen the same
I know the shame in your defeat

But I will hold on hope
And I won’t let you choke
On the noose around your neck

And I’ll find strength in pain
And I will change my ways
I’ll know my name as it’s called again

Cause I have other things to fill my time
You take what is yours and I’ll take mine
Now let me at the truth
Which will refresh my broken mind

So tie me to a post and block my ears
I can see widows and orphans through my tears
I know my call despite my faults
And despite my growing fears

But I will hold on hope
And I won’t let you choke
On the noose around your neck

And I’ll find strength in pain
And I will change my ways
I’ll know my name as it’s called again

So come out of your cave walking on your hands
And see the world hanging upside down
You can understand dependence
When you know the maker’s hand

So make your siren’s call
And sing all you want
I will not hear what you have to say

Cause I need freedom now
And I need to know how
To live my life as it’s meant to be

And I will hold on hope
And I won’t let you choke
On the noose around your neck

And I’ll find strength in pain
And I will change my ways
I’ll know my name as it’s called again

-The Cave: Mumford & Sons

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And though my heart is torn, I will praise You in this storm

This song has been an encouragement to me today. It is so comforting to know that when I feel the world is caving in all around me that my God is STILL God. He is STILL holy. He is my peace, my strength, my comfort. And even when my heart is torn, I will praise Him because He IS God. He IS holy. And he will teach me what I need to know to continue on this rocky journey of life.

I was sure by now
God you would have reached down
And wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say “Amen”, and it’s still raining

As the thunder rolls
I barely hear Your whisper through the rain
“I’m with you”
And as You mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

I’ll praise You in this storm
And I will life my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
Every tear I’ve cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember when
I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry
You raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
How can I carry on
If I can’t find You

As the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
“I’m with you”
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord
The Maker of Heaven and Earth

-Casting Crowns, I will praise you in this storm

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Self-defeat

I learned something just a bit ago as I was reading Walden, by Henry David Thoreau. I realized just after a few sentences of reading that I have been imprisoned by my own thoughts and doubts. I constantly dwell over the failures of my past, and think of how dumb I was at the time. I tell myself that I am constantly a disappointment to those around me, and that I can never get to where I want to be because “Who knows? I may just end up disappointing everyone regardless of what I try to do right.” There has been an enormous wall in front of me, or maybe 20 of them, that have been keeping me from pushing forward. If there was just one wall instead of 20, I may have felt more confident that I could surpass it. But 20? Yikes.
I know in my heart that I can’t avoid disappointment in life, and that I can’t avoid the fact that I may disappoint others at one time or another. But what I also know, is if I keep dwelling on those negative possibilities, then I won’t ever move forward. And setting goals would be a waste of time.

Don’t go through live day to day as if you’re doing penance for your past. It is because of Grace that we have been redeemed. So instead of hitting your head against the wall, live with JOY. Every day is a fulfillment of His promises and purpose.

DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT! Instead of wallowing in your negative thoughts, work toward what you want to be. Realize that you will not be perfect. You will make mistakes. But don’t let your past conquer your spirit. Turn from them. Learn from them. And make your dreams into reality.

One of my favorite quotes from Henry David Thoreau:

“I learned this, at least, by my experiment; that if one advances confidently in the direction of his dreams, and endeavors to live the life which he has imagined, he will meet with a success unexpected in common hours. If you have built castles in the air, your work need not be lost; that is where they should be. Now put the foundations under them.”

Psalm 28:7 says this:

The LORD is my strength and my shield;
my heart trusts in him, and he helps me.
My heart leaps for joy,
and with my song I praise him.

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Wishful Thinking

I wish we ate dinners at the kitchen table like the old days. There’s no peace in this house. I hate having to walk around eggshells in fear that I might make him blow up in rage, or maybe even get thrown across the room. I have to get out of here. And fast.

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I took this picture when my family went to Aspen in September. First of all, I love it because it’s green. And second, I love it because it’s a picture of something that seems to be a symbol of the 1960’s.

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Christmastime is here

I’m not sure what this next year will hold, but I’m holding onto my hope that God will guide me through whatever comes.

Christmas takes on a new meaning for me this year. It may be one of the last Christmases that my immediate family, the four of us, get to be together in this house. And who knows what else the future will hold.

I enjoy every holiday. Every birthday. Every chance that I get to celebrate something with my family. I enjoy our little traditions and joys, such as reading “Twas the Night Before Christmas” on Christmas Eve, and waking up to “Santa’s sleigh bells” ringing as he’s leaving presents on Christmas morning. Even as my brother and I have grown old, we have asked that mom and dad continue those traditions. We enjoy the Christmas joy we all get to share when our family comes together. And as I’ve gotten older, now almost 24 years old, I’ve come to see my precious family as my favorite Christmas gift rather than the new bike, or the volleyball, or all the candy that Santa has messily left all over the floor as he left on his sleigh.

I love my family. I cherish them, each one of them in different ways. I may not know what the next year will bring, but I’m holding on to my hope that God will guide it, and hold my hand.

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Fun taking pictures with my mom

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